He whispered: “I want you more than you want Me.”
God is wanting and waiting to embrace you right now – He wants to show you how much He loves you and for you to be secure in His love. Always.
“My beloved is to me a sachet of myrrh resting between my breasts.” Song of Solomon 1:13 NIV
The love God holds for you is never failing – He does not grow tired, give up, or ever forsake you. You are the apple of His eye, the dearest object of His care, a possession to Him that He rejoices in. You’re His beloved. He deeply delights in seeing your face, hearing your voice, and is thrilled when you run into His arms. You are always wanted by Him. Yes, always. He is always wanting you to come to Him.
“O my dove, that art in the clefts of the rock, in the secret places of the stairs, let me see thy countenance, let me hear thy voice; for sweet is thy voice, and thy countenance is comely.” Song of Solomon 2:14 KJV
But sometimes we’ll be a bit hesitant to go to Him and rest under His banner of love for us. We feel unworthy to be in His presence; we believe we have to make ourselves spiritually “presentable” to go sit at His feet. I can remember a time when I was feeling this way. I had had a difficult, trying day of resisting the enemy and by nightfall, felt so distraught and weary that I was running to Jesus’ arms. An incredible hunger to spend time with Him overwhelmed my soul, and I hurried to that prayer closet. But as I grabbed my Bible, something crept into my mind. My fast paced walk to where I had intended to meet the Lord suddenly slowed. My eyes filled with tears as I nervously sat on my couch, and fumbled through my Bible with shaking hands. What had changed?
Mere little lies that the devil taunted me with which I had weakly accepted: He doesn’t want to see you. You had a bad day. He’s mad at you… don’t even pray.
Hesitancy Stops Intimacy
I think it’s possible that in the heart of every Christian lies a doubt, even in the most subtle way, that Jesus doesn’t love us – that He doesn’t want to hear our prayers, meet with us in the secret place, comfort and extort, bring our deliverance, etc. At one time or another, we’ve all questioned His love, believing that it is only available to us in triumph and joys, not difficulty and pains. The moment a trial comes, or an impurity arises out of us, we suddenly think He’s refused us. Hence the hesitancy to go to Him. We want to and yet we won’t.
God’s Everlasting Love
But the truth is, the devil knows of the unfailing love God has for us. In fact, he knows it so well because he saw the blood that was shed on Calvary for you and me.
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8 NIV
We’d better believe he’d do everything in his power to stop those who Christ has redeemed from going to Him and resting in His love. Yet it’s very difficult for us to discern such lies from him if we ourselves aren’t secured in the love God has for us. We won’t be able to rest confidently throughout day and night with the Lord if we think His love towards us is dependent upon our actions and circumstances. Romans 5:8 clearly tells us that He loved us while we were yet sinners. And if redeemed by the blood of the Lamb, how much more do you think you have access into His presence, His heart, His arms now that you are His?
God is for you. Everything He has is yours. Who dare bring a charge against His little one? It is God alone who justifies, not you, your circumstance, or behavior. Jesus died and resurrected and ever lives to make intercession for you, and nothing you do, nothing you experience, and certainly nothing the devil barks about can separate you from His everlasting love. Focus on the cross of Christ and you’ll see how much He loves you. Focus on the resurrected Lord and you’ll see how much He cares for you. Focus on the loving gaze of the Lord and you’ll see how much He wants you.
When the Lord whispered that He wanted me more than I wanted Him, it was on that difficult day that I felt least wanted. But it’s not about how we feel – it is about what HE says, and what He says is true. We only must believe it. Truth says He loves us. Truth says He wants us. Truth says He wants us to always rest in is unfailing, unchangeable, ever-abiding love for us. And the Christian that’s secure in the love he knows the Bridegroom has for him we’ll respond to Him in love and rest under that banner of love at all times.
You want the Lord Jesus? He wants you more. Always. Rest in that.
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